I had not yet labeled myself but felt the pull of men irresistible. I was drawn to a boy and examined every tether but the core one, that I wanted him to feel the same for me and I knew he didn’t. I spent the entirety of that year mourning our potential. I was prepared for Elegy Month.

he is remembered // like a stoic painting. it looms over / his organ, static from years // untouched, nesting nutcracker
 / and country hymnal.

Take this cryptic correspondence as – a sound bite skirts my wonder.

On my swallowed stone, I painted the weather inside a zebra stripe.

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As long as I have been old enough to understand what the middle class is, it has been described as “shrinking.”

Shelly is fifteen years old, and she is alive today. Shelly is only sometimes alive. Sometimes she is dead.

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"Do you ever feel like/ you're just living/ the same day / over/ and over / and over again."

Could I not want / the justice and / the sentence and / the jail of a goal?

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I get a haircut and scrub the stove, feeling unpeeled / from the old terror.

How the distances collapse when / moving at speed, several instances of relapse folded until one prolonged scene, an / abrupt start from sleep.

But come on, even Eve ate a dead baby dino. / Adam was still munching on his apples like a dweeb.

clean of me, my rod, / creel, sturdy / shoes, jack knife.

When she is young, the name “Mary” is very common. If Social Security records for the ranked popularity of baby names in any given year went back to the first century, “Mary” would be number one on the list for hundreds of years. Sometimes, when she is meeting a person for the first time, they ask her if she likes her name. Sure, she replies. It turns out they usually have an aunt or a great-aunt, a teacher or a boss, named Mary of whom they are not very fond.

You love to see it—discrete individual units realizing they are not / at all that. Like a grass field caught in wind, finally understanding / its purpose, I breathe with the sound of God breathing.

No one said much / just / this makes virgins, that // makes pollution.

After Graham stopped returning my texts, I started leaving little parts of myself all over the Internet. In his early twenties, especially, Graham left doorways to himself everywhere—not just the normal abandoned social portals of MySpace and Friendster, but also a blog with a cursor shaped like a hot pink mouth. When I clicked on an entry, the disembodied lips smacked. Sickened, I kept clicking as the computerized sucking noise pulled me into page after page of journal entries, photos, digital check-ins at bars where he’d time-stamped his arrival.

In early May we are driving south from Phoenix on Interstate 10. The land in every direction is sparsely vegetated—saguaro cactus, organ pipe cholla, barrel cactus, and mesquite. Dust blows across this big sandbox. The sky is hazy. To the east, in the distance, are what appear to be massive heaps of dirt left over from some grand construction project gone wrong. But this is a trick of light.

Call it oxymoron, where to shed is to gain worship, / polish escaping into the hidden temples of my teeth.

only the two rocks holding each other know / where they find balance.

we can all agree / no jobs for clouds / unconscious drifters

though I do // look pretty good / slung over // where a pair // of hot pink / fuzzy dice // used to hang—

i don’t want to ___________________ about this.

Long before Tara met Eggs, she shelled out her funds / to get spat on in the woods, fed ipecac, and peyote. / From her perspective, the way out of cessation and substance / is through, so when the witch uncorks an amber bottle, / and passes it saying every last drop, she drinks.

Ghost of my own design, was it your / gloved hands tracing out my spine the night / I lied my way into the ER, hoping / to be touched?

Got to be starting              some thing. My father used to                                  catch and                                           modify minor birds with butcher twine.               Revise each one to be more beautiful.